March 2012
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God Wants You to Let Go of Your Past and Live Your...
Are you struggling with forgiving yourself for things you have done and haven’t done? Many people have more trouble forgiving themselves than other people. It can be especially hard when the consequences of your actions have hurt others and there is no way to remove them.
Accept that you did the best you could with the abilities and awareness you had at the time, accept that you cannot...
February 2012
10 posts
A time with You would be nice. A quiet time. Literally quiet.
I have a headache. I feel awful. I feel incomplete.
I don’t know what’s gotten into me.
I still don’t know what You want for me
Okay, sorry guys! I’ve been slacking. I’ve been having a lot of work for school lately. But for lent, since I never really give up anything or practice it, I think I’ll just try and develop the habit of truly finishing and doing my devotionals every single day for forty days. I’m not really giving up anything, but rather I am giving my time to Him and for Him every single...
Please show me what You want for me.
Thank you for all your blessings and provisions.
Amen
Anonymous asked: How do you feel about Jehovahs witnesses
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Why would anyone believe in God? (Part 1/3)
A lot of the times we ask ourselves, “Why doesn’t God just prove Himself?” I remember when I was younger, I would always compromise with God. I’d say things like, “God, if You’re real, You’ll make this light turn off by itself. If You’re real, You’ll do that.” I waited for the lights to turn off. Guess what? They didn’t. We ask...
Picking up the pieces (update)
Today, I was invited to go to a “pink and sparkles” (lol don’t laaaaaugh - I did. LOL) themed house party/small get together. It was a bit intimidating at first, considering majority of the women there were about 20-31. I was pretty apprehensive because there were so many people and we had to introduce ourselves one by one. However, everyone was friendly and someone asked me to share my...
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God's sufficient grace
As Christians we can have peace and comfort knowing that God’s grace furnishes what is lacking in our lives due to personal weakness. Knowing Christ fills our inadequacy is a great source of encouragement. We know that Christ is equal to any task we face. Knowing that God is not asking us to do anything that he is not willing to accomplish through us is our greatest source of encouragement....
Please use me in any way. Please let me be an instrument for You. I need to do something with my life and I feel useless. Use me for Your glory.
Amen
I feel useless. I’m bored. I have nothing to do with all the time I have. I don’t know what to do. I feel empty and sad. I’m tired of just sitting here. Doing absolutely nothing with my life.
January 2012
6 posts
words cannot describe how thankful I am. THANK YOU.
it’s 6.37am.
help me change and be a testimony to others and may they see You in me and Your love.
amen!
oh, and it’s kind of selfish to think someone is praying for me…but for those who truly have and truly care about me: thank you.
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Thank you for putting such a wonderful boy in my life and thank you for giving me this opportunity to be part of something I’ve longed for for the past 4 months.
Thank You.
The mark that will permanently be on my body will truly mean something and be a constant reminder. Thank you for constantly showing me You’re still watching over me. I know You have a plan for me, and I pray that...
Many of us “advertise” for Jesus, but our spiritual houses are in disrepair. We may attend church, speak in “Christianese,” and mingle nicely with others. But when our conduct does not align with our hearts, our first-class behavior is just a performance of piety. When Jesus confronted the Pharisees, He said, “You . . . outwardly appear righteous to men, but inside you are full of hypocrisy and...
funny. an opportunity to share my testimony.
but I feel wrong doing it.
yet when I talk about it I still feel the same joy as before.
I want to go back to You…but I don’t know how to. I don’t know where to start. Do I pray? Do I cry again? I always do this. I have never started my year well. I’ve started to loathe myself. I don’t like myself. I don’t know who I am anymore as a person. I feel alone. I miss affection. I miss feeling loved. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so...
December 2011
6 posts
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I don’t know why I’m doing what I’m doing. It’s funny because most people already have these preconceived notions of me being a Christian when they first meet me. Do I come off that way? I guess that’s a good thing… right? What happened to me? I was in Your presence. I was filled with Your love and I embraced every single inch of it. I felt You. I felt You daily. I felt You there in my life. I saw...
Late have I loved You Beauty so ancient, so new You were within me, But I was outside You And it was there that I searched for You Late have I loved You You were here with me, But I was not with You And it was there that You found me It was there that You found me You called and You shouted You broke through my deafness You flashed and You shone Dispelled all my blindness You breathed Your...
I feel like I have nobody.
Also, thank you for answering our prayers! I hope she’s the one for him. He deserves the best. I’m glad it was resolved.
Amen.
I talk about You and there’s so much happiness in my heart. The joy is still there hiding beneath all my hollowness; the vivacity is euphoric. I want to hold a mic again with an audience ready to praise You, to worship, with hearts open for You - hands up, eyes closed, singing on top of their lungs. My heart longs to lead praise and worship, where there isn’t an awkwardness, the...
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I haven’t talked to anyone about anything
Any of this.
November 2011
11 posts
I miss singing for You. Genuinely singing for You. I know I’ve messed up again and again; it’s even gotten to the point where it doesn’t affect me. It doesn’t hurt me. I know there are consequences for my actions and I’m scared, every possible and probable consequence scares me. I sang recently with a friend - I sang on top of my lungs, singing for You, of Your love,...
I’m broken.
God, I can’t do this anymore. I can’t.
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college/faith
I don’t feel like I deserve to be called an “Ate” or looked up to by these kids. I’m far from what their parents would want them to be. I won’t pretend anymore. It’ll look good on my part if I kept putting Bible verses on my statuses, post a daily devotional, and had super conservative pictures. But I don’t want that responsibility of being concerned or having to consider how these kids will see...
I’m in a dangerous place, no direction within I feel lost in myself, trapped in my skin It’s a critical state, in my mind I can tell that the future looks dim if I don’t get some help I am lost without You Safe in Your arms When I’m weak, You carry me I am Safe in Your Arms You’re my strength You’re my safety Oh, looking back all the years All the blood sweating tears There were times...
You’re really still here. Thank you
Now You pull me near You When we’re close, I fear You Still I’m afraid to tell You, all that I’ve done Are You done forgiving? Oh can You look past my pretending? Lord, I’m so tired of defending, what I’ve become What have I become?
I hear You say, “My love is over. It’s underneath. It’s inside. It’s in between. The times you doubt Me, when...
I’ve fallen so far away from You. Do You love me still? If I come running back again will You still love me and forgive me? I don’t deserve it. I feel too ashamed to go back. I’ve written pages and pages of studies and devotionals, but to practice what I preached now seems shameful. I just feel to disgusting to even be in Your presence, so I feel like I should hide away from You...
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking that You’d ever need me, could You ever need me…
Cause You spoke me into this existence, so why do I resist this? What is it I can’t let go?
Cause all I have is yours, oh Lord.
You are Lord of all creation, author of salvation, where else can I go?
Cause even this breath that I’m taking, you have given me, there’s nothing I can call...
Yeah, here I am again.
Months and months of You. every day. Every single day. That’s all I lived off, that’s all that kept me sane, that’s all that kept me alive. I felt You. You were the only thing that pushed me and held me up from falling to my knees. I didn’t feel broken anymore. I felt alive. I had a reason to smile every day. I loved screaming, singing, and shouting these praises...
Everything is routine and empty.
I’m not doing anything for Your glory, even though I should.
The “Christian” friends I have here are in the same place I am. They’re doing more than me; smoking, drinking, drugs. I stopped. But I’m still lost and sucked into this college lifestyle. Same old same old every day. My Bible is collecting dust and the four page devotional...
October 2011
11 posts
THANK
YOU
SO
MUCH
LORD.
I LOVE YOU!
These tears are from complete joy. You’re SO AMAZING. So amazing. Thank you for keeping me in line. Thank you for always pushing me up before I fall. Thank you for all of these answered prayers. I love you so much.
THANK YOU!
Amen.
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getting into His stride.
Enoch walked with God… —Genesis 5:24
The true test of a person’s spiritual life and character isn’t what he does in the extraordinary moments of life, but rather, what he does during the ordinary times when there’s nothing tremendous or exciting happening. A person’s worth is revealed in his attitude toward the ordinary things of life when he is not under the...
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Longing for Him.
I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. I will be fully satisfied, as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs...
I typed up the first 5 paragraphs of psalm 63 study but it is 9am and I need sleep.
I also don’t wanna just put up a verse and a study that isn’t complete cause dats maad awks. SOOO I’MA POST IT WHEN ALL 11 VERSES ARE STUDIED. so it’s convenient for all of you. I’m keeping the fail grammar though lull.
I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being...
so much smiling and laughter.
thank You.
Thank You for giving me a reason to smile every day and I hope I can make a person smile once a day, too. Being stuck in this box makes it hard to find a reason to appreciate You or find You working in my life on a daily basis. But recently, I’ve been able to see You and feel You, doing just that.
I’d also like to thank You again (even though it’s still weird for me), for Nel...
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Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. James 4:7-10.
First offffff, lemme saaaay……..I’m kind of...
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Time is of the essence. haha.
Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near. Isaiah 55:6
So why should we seek Him? Because He has the willingness, the power to liberate us, and pull us away from this continuous cycle of falling short and to give us a completely revamped attitude. We should remember life and time is always moving and we should never pass up the opportunity to turn to Him. If we...
Oh, God. I’m yearning for You so much. I don’t think I can verbalize that enough.
I want to scream praises on top of my lungs. I feel like I’m bottling all up inside. I hate it. I want to sing and I want to reach towards the heavens…which I can’t do in my dorm.
I lack so much discipline and I can’t keep doing this alone anymore because I keep stumbling and I chose to stay down because I don’t have any motivation. Nothing is pushing me. I listen to...
September 2011
18 posts
Whatever happened to Tim’s family, I pray they’re in Your hands.
Amen
Help me help him.
Amen
This isn’t what you want for me. He’s not the one You want for me…My heart’s still healing, but at least I’ve forgiven, although I know he’s not sorry. Take this empty spot in my heart. It’s Yours.
You’re so amazing.
An answered prayer in 5 minutes.
I love You so much, Lord.
THANK YOU!
Amen
God, I really, really can’t do this on my own. I haven’t moved. I want to, but I remain here. I sing praises out loud and I listen to about 100 songs a day. But I haven’t moved. I continue to be quiet, no one to talk about my spiritual walk with, and no one to share the joy, the joy that’s slowly fading and losing its wonder. Everything has become routine. I don’t...